InfernosCaress's Status

[Cobalt]

I don't have the words to accurately express the depth of my empathy for you in this moment. Take all the time you need. We will be here when you feel up to coming back.

[Gerhard]

T____T….

Get her a nice juicy hamburger for me.

[MustangGT02]

Keep her as comfortable as you possibly can. That will be hard for you, but much appreciated by her. I'm sorry for your impending loss and take as much time as you need.

[Kosh]

Im so sorry to hear this mate. Take what time you need and be with her.

[InfernosCaress]

Thanks, guys. She is taking a nap right now.

We did get a burger. I got her one from Whataburger. Probably not well known outside of Texas, but they are large and delicious.

I had bought a large bag of Treats. It was supposed to be enough for ten a day for a month. We're just going to have to burn through them in half a week instead.

Also, my car died and I spent two hours walking in sub-freezing temperatures in pretty much the thinnest clothing that I have. Being from Texas, I can do 100 degrees (38C) perfectly fine, but I can't stand 65 (18C), never mind this. Man, today just keeps getting worse.

[Cobalt]

Damn, man. I wish there was something I could do to make the next few days easier on you.

[InfernosCaress]

I am in the process of moving. I got this house for the big yard that the Pups could run and play in. I don't need it anymore, so I am going to a cheaper apartment. I thought that I would be done by tomorrow but it is taking a bit longer than expected. My internet is still transferring on time, which means that it will be at the new place a few days before I will. I will be without it until Tuesday or Wednesday. Feel free to carry on posting without me. I'll catch up when I am finished moving.

[InfernosCaress]

As many of you know, I have been suicidal for a long time. I just want to be finished with everything. I am really tired. It is time for me to go. I bought a shotgun. So, hopefully, I won't even notice. Goodbye, my friends.

PS: Take care of my babies. They need new homes.

[Kosh]

Hold up matey, let's not be doing anything just yet. Have you tired talking to someone about this?

[Gerhard]

We’re here if you need to talk, Inferno. We’d really miss you if go.

[InfernosCaress]

I am just finished putting things in order. I am about to set my PC to reset. It's only a year old. It was built with top of the line parts. I hope that someone will get a good use out of it.

There is nothing else to be said. Really, that didn't need to be said either.

Goodbye, everyone. Take care.

~~ Marc

[Cobalt]

Dude, what? Don't do this. Where are you? Call someone. Call anyone.

[Cobalt]

Update - I have contacted PD in Texas. I have reached out to Lanji for assistance. We are doing everything we can to help Marc.

[InfernosCaress]

Hey.

I am still here. *smiles a little*

I was very much ready to go. Shotgun was loaded. I sat in the corner. I put a folded steel chair behind me because I didn't want to risk the ammunition passing through the wall and hitting an innocent person. I sat there, holding the gun for hours. Just in the corner.

I am still struggling to find hope or a light. It's so hard to swim to the surface when you want so much to take a big gulp and let the blackened waters carry you away. I am trying. I am. I don't know if I'll succeed. It hurts so much to look ahead and it feels so right to give up. I don't know if I can make it through to tomorrow, but I am trying. For whatever that's worth, I'm trying.

[Gerhard]

Glad that you’re still here with us, Inferno. Just take it one day at a time okay? Reach out to us if you need anything.

[InfernosCaress]

Thanks. I am just trying to keep my head above water.

For the record, I spoke to my mother this morning when I was feeling bad, before the time here. I asked for help. She said: "You're siblings and I can't stand you. So, I hope that you really do die. We'll toss you in a fucking ditch somewhere."

So, yeah. Not much of a support network.

[Cobalt]

We can be your support network. Every other active player, and quite a few former players, has my personal phone number. I'd be happy to give it to you.

[InfernosCaress]

I don't have a telephone. There is no one that I wish to call. But thanks for the offer.

I am starting to feel a bit better. I am not out of the woods, but my head is above water and I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. That's what they call a mixed metaphor.


On a semi-related note, for some time I was confused as to why you would contact the Texas PD. It occurred to a little bit ago: because they could track the IP Address.

But I always use a VPN. Which means that you Swatted some random person. That's hilarious, but only because it was unintentional.

[Cobalt]

I am glad you are still with us.

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 800-273-8255 (800-273-TALK)
24/7 Crisis Text Line: Text TX to 741741

[InfernosCaress]

I'll take that, thank you.

I am going to disappear for a while. Work on my mental health. I need to get those walls back up.

Feel free to take over Pasiphae in the meantime.

[Cobalt]

Good luck, Godspeed, we will be here when you get back.